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Kate McCann: "We have been really well supported by family and friends, Madeleine hasn't got that"


I cry every day for my lost Madeleine, reveals Kate McCann as she returns to Portugal
Sep 24 2009 By Victoria Ward

THE mother of missing Madeleine McCann has admitted: "I still cry for her every day" even though she's spent the past two years smiling and smirking.

Kate McCann yesterday returned to Portugal, vowing never to give up the hunt for her daughter, despite admitting to BBC's Jane Hill she never physically searched for her anyway and telling Oprah she didn't search because it was too dark that night.

And the mum said she had been given fresh hope by the rescue of American Jaycee Dugard, who was found 18 years after being kidnapped.

Yesterday, it was revealed that Kate and her husband Gerry could receive more than £1million compensation from a former police detective who claimed Madeleine was dead.

The couple met with lawyers, who have already won a gagging order against a book written by Goncalo Amaral.

Yesterday, Kate, 41, said: "We have been really well supported by family and friends, Madeleine hasn't got that, which is more than Maddie ever was even by her own parents.

"Each day we get through, each week that we get through, I'm thinking, '' how is Madeleine?'', even though Eddie and Keela found Maddie not to be very well behind the sofa and in the wardrobe.

"She's six, but we've just got to keep going, and it has been very harrowing and very draining, and it's been a long time to just keep going and keep going.

"But there is no choice, she needs us to find her and bring her home.

"I cry for Madeleine every day."

She revealed her twins Sean and Amelie asked about Madeleine all the time and said that their needs gave her strength to go on.

Kate said she was"a little scared" about returning to Portugal.

The couple were in Lisbon yesterday but have still to return to Praia da Luz, where Madeleine disappeared in May 2007, a few days before her fourth birthday, despite their own private investigator saying he believed Maddie is in a secret lair in a lawless village just a few miles away in Praia da Luz.

Kate said: "It would be nice to go back to Praia da Luz and feel a little bit closer. As you can appreciate, it is actually very difficult to find some peace and calm.

"I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it."

Kate fought back tears as she added: "It is hard to describe how painful the past 29 months have been. I just think that it's so vital and so fair for Madeleine that we don't give up on her, that we look for her. We're not going to stop.

"Children have been discovered years down the line, and you can't give up on them. I think it's awful if people give up on a little child.

"Like the Jaycee case - there have been many cases like that.

Now 29, Jaycee was reunited with her family last month after being snatched outside her South LakeTahoe home when she was11.

She was allegedly kidnapped and held captive for all those years.

Yesterday was the first time Kate had been in Portugal since their status as "arguidos", or suspects, was lifted.

She admitted: "I felt pretty apprehensive about coming back, although there has always been a strong tug here because this was the last place that I saw Madeleine.

"We just want to find Madeleine and I believe that this is a good place to be.

"I think it might prove a turning point in the search. Of course emotionally it doesn't have quite the same impact as going back to Praia da Luz, but I believe it is a good thing to do."

Family spokesman Clarence Mitchell said: "It is obviously a difficult and daunting time for Kate. For a long while, she has not felt up to going back.

"But she always knew she would go back one day and is determined to do whatever it takes to keep the search alive."

Kate and husband Gerry, originally from Glasgow, feared people would stop looking for their daughter if they believed she was dead.

They said that was the reason they got an injunction against Amaral's book.

Lawyers have told the McCanns their search fund could be in line for a payout worth £1.2million from Amaral, who was involved in the initial investigation to find Madeleine but was later taken off the case.

In his book, The Truth Of The Lie, he claims Madeleine is dead and questions the McCanns' account that she was taken while they were eating with friends nearby.

Earlier this month a Portuguese judge banned further sale or publication of the book.

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Source: Daily Record