News of the World: Kate McCann's Diary

By Daniel Sanderson, 13/09/2008

TODAY we reveal the secret diary of agonised mum Kate McCann—penned over months as she and husband Gerry struggled to deal with their daughter Madeleine’s abduction.

Link: Kate McCann: My struggle to control ‘very difficult’ Madeleine
Link: Kate faked her own diary

Her words destroy the litany of lies told by Portuguese cops to paint them as cold and calculating. Kate wrote: “I can’t bear being without Madeleine. It’s like torture— a slow painful death.”

Link: Question 41. Is it true that in England you even considered handing over Madeleine’s custody to a relative?
Link: Madeleine McCann: Ward of Court

FOR months the Portuguese police leaked carefully selected extracts from Kate McCann’s secret diary, chosen to deliberately paint her and husband Gerry as the ice couple—cold, dispassionate and emotionless in the face of three-year-old Madeleine’s abduction.

Now, for the first time, the News of the World can fill in the blanks and nail those lies. The 135-page journal covering April 28, 2007 to Tuesday, July 31, was passed to us by a reporter in Portugal appalled by the sickening smear campaign against the McCanns.

Link: The Truth of the Lie

Kate’s log of the dark days after Madeleine vanished from their holiday flat reveals the true picture of the tortured woman behind the calm, brave face she had to portray in public, as initial disbelief and numbness gave way to desperation and rage. Often she includes touching messages of love to her missing daughter. It confirms the strength Kate drew from her devout Catholic faith—and frankly admits the doubts the trauma forced her to face.

Link: Susan Healy, Kate's mum "Kate and Gerry were not the most devout Catholic family"

THE entry for the fateful day Madeleine McCann vanished—May 3, 2007—makes chilling reading in her mother’s diary, because it started out so NORMAL.

Mum-of-three Kate, 40, records that it began much like any other since the family arrived at the Mark Warner Ocean Club in Praia da Luz on Portugal’s Algarve coast—one long, happy round of swimming, tennis, kids’ club, games and fun.

But knowing what is about to befall them turns Kate’s simple account of the children’s evening bedtime routine into a tense drama...

THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired—sitting on my lap—I read the story of Mog (favourite children’s book).

Link: Maddie's book torn by parents

Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it.

Silence. (by the time she shut the door?)

Link: PJ admit the McCanns drugged their kids

Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.

(During dinner nearby with friends —dubbed the Tapas 7—the group took turns to check the children. At 10pm Kate discovers Madeleine gone. The McCanns and helpers frantically scour the area until 4am.)

Link: McCann's did not physically search for Maddie

FRIDAY, MAY 4: No sleep, Gerry and I started looking through the streets around 06.00 as it was starting to get light. Nobody around. Why not? Desperate.

Minutes seem like hours. Outside of the apartments masses of people asking questions about that night and for descriptions of Madeleine. Long day.

(Then Kate, Gerrry and their seven friends were taken to the Policia Judiciaria, or PJ, headquarters in nearby Portimao to give statements.)

Nobody from the police introduced themselves. Nobody offered us a drink or food.

(That's because it was a police station not a Tapas Bar)

All the police dressed informally and smoking. No sympathy was shown and far from inspiring.

I believe my statement would have been around 15.00 and such. They allowed G (Gerry) to come in with me but seated behind me. Translator present.

The police officer who took us by car to the station was the one asking the questions and afterwards typed the answers on a typewriter. Morose.

We left the police station around 7.30pm to 8pm. After 15 minutes we received a call from the PJ saying we had to go back but they didn’t tell us why. We turned around and flew back at around 200 kilometres an hour. Once again frightening. Did they find her? Please God. Is she dead? Prayers. We arrived—they showed us a photo of a girl they’d forgotten to show us from the close circuit TV footage. Not M. Devastating.



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6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Jill

have just come to your blog via the 3A's and have bookmarked it

looking forward to trawling through it

excellent work!!

Anonymous said...

Good afternoon Jill , I came upon your blog by chance. I admire your inspiration and fight with the NHS. Have had a continuous battle with them for the last two years.
I have also introduced you to the 3a's. If you have some time in your fight for justice please pop over and join us. Madeleine needs a fighter,and you are one gutsy lady.

Written by IRONSIDE

Jill Havern said...

Hello to both of you!

Sorry, the publishing of these messages took me so long but I didn't have my comments moderation thingy set correctly!

Very pleased you came upon my blog by chance as that is the idea of the blog and you've just proved it worked! :)

I'm hoping that should anyone google info about the NHS will find this site and leave with a different opinion of this case.

Thank you very much for posting details of this blog on the forum.

I'm very sorry to hear that you are having a battle with the NHS yourself, Ironside, if there's anything I can do to help please give me a shout - you know where I am. You can also PM me at the 3 Arguidos if you want to, otherwise my email address is jkhavern@aol.com

God bless x

Anonymous said...

Hi Jill:)

jkh said...

Hi Mike:)

jkh said...

Have you come in peace?